August 2, 2009


So I had this whole thing prepared for today's post. But after a lousy night and little sleep, I spent most of my day packing and cleaning and saying goodbye and watching people cry. Not to mention the energy I spent carrying my nostalgic ass around the house and feeling sorry for myself. I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I'm beat, spent, you name it. I could barely get online to write this quick post.
Don't get me wrong. I am excited to go, Shanghai is a wonderful city. Full of chinese people yes, but pretty great. There, I have a lot of things that I can't get here, but also I will be losing some that I wont, by any means, find there. My family, my cats, and the food! You must be thinking that I'm a fool. It's the course of life - daughters separate from their mothers and sometimes their cats to start a life of their own. But this is not the case. Firstly, I'm not moving along or getting a life of my own, I'm just moving in with my father. Second, I love those cats, okay? Fine, I am being a little foolish, but so what? I have rights. I have the right to feel down every once in a while, even if the reasons are silly.
This is sort of new for me. Writing like this, I mean. I'm a strong person, I really am. I've been through a lot and I have stayed strong for my own sake and for the sake of my family. But every girl reaches a point in which being strong is not an option. For once, only this one time, I'm going to be the childish kid, the crier, the sad and the emotional...

And yes, I'm going to miss my mother! And I'm not even one bit ashamed to admit it.

But enough of that. My apologies for not writing about any books, or authors of anything of that matter. I really aint in the mood.
I'm going to buy some ebooks now to read during my oh-so-very-long flight tomorrow. There's something to look forward to. :)

Very long journey ahead -

Car ride to airport: 2 hours approximately. (If traffic is flowing)
Flight to Paris: 9 hours. Not counting the wait at the airport which is about 4 hours long.
Flight from Paris to Shanghai: 12 hours. Not counting the 6 hours I have to wait at the airport.

And when I get there, is going to be about eight in the morning if our flight is not delayed. Which means I wont be able to sleep for another 12 hours approximately.
I hate tomorrow already.

Anyways, I will be back on Wednesday I think, I'm not really sure. If I'm lucky I'll get online in France, but I can't promise anything.

You guys have a wonderful week!

Bite On,



  1. Oh Hilda!!! My thoughts, prayers and heart are yours my dear. There comes a point in every great woman's life when we are the one's that need a shoulder. Here is mine honey. Believe, I know... I am the superwoman... who secretly cries when taking a shower when my life just gets the better of me... but now that I have found this great community of friends... it is a little easier to hang in there. But you are very deserving of a "crappy" day. You are leaving your mother to go to your father. We may not know all the details of your life, but just knowing that you leave a piece of you behind is enough. You will hear this a lot, but hang in there.
    As your friend, I promise you great days, I will be there with you smiling.
    As your friend, I promise you good days, I will be there with a smile for you
    As your friend, I promise you not so good days, I will be there with a bag of laughs for you.
    As you friend, I promise you very crappy days, I will there to beat the crap out of someone for you!!! Until you smile and laugh!!!
    ~By Cecile, Me!!!
    Hope you at least smiled!!

  2. New and exciting, and scary too. That I can understand, but you will have a blast.

    Oh and just read your Twilight article and loved it! Ideas are popping up in my head, must email you after dinner...which I first have to go out and buy some ingredients for.

  3. Hi Hilda,
    Just because your heading off to new adventures doesn't mean it doesn't hurt to say goodbuy, even if it is just for a while. And yes, cats are very important...don't have 'em but I have pets too, so I can relate to it. And the flight crap, Hilda,I am broken just reading about it.

    I hope it will all go well and we will be there to hear all about it, the good and the bad.

  4. (((Hilda)))

    You have a safe flight and I hope all goes well when you settle in Shanghai!! What an adventure, but the anxiety and upset you are feeling is totally understandable.

    You take care and we will look forward to your posts when you get back online.


  5. Hi Hilda, All your feelings are valid, this is a Big Life Change! While moving to Shanghai is an adventure, of course you're going to miss your mom and your cats. Thankfully you will have phones and computers to stay close.

    E-books on the airplane is a terrific idea!

    Good luck with your move and I'm hoping for lots of posts so that we can live vicariously through your adventures!

  6. I know your pain of moving. I did it many times growing up and it's tough, very tough when you leave pets behind. A few times my dad left for hardship tours that kept him away for a year at time, you'll just love your mom all the more the next time you see her. But it sounds like your heading towards some new adventures and spending some time with your dad. Good things will come out it. Smile!

    Take care!

  7. Hey guys, thank you all!! Comments did cheer me up! Fortunately I'm feeling a lot better now, and of course even happier cause I got blogger back hehehe.

    Cecile, that was brilliant! =D

    Have a great day everyone and happy posting (:


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